this is real, this is me.

I've led the high life. Last year I raked in up to 40k in just 3 months. About half of it is gone, through my mistakes and misconceptions of the online trading. A small pie of that money has gone to unnecessary drinking, where the bottles came freely and stupors were all that we boasted off. Another went to luxury items, when I splurged on LV Gucci Mont Blanc Burberry and expensive phones.

I've learnt my lesson. How do the rich get richer? Why do the poor always remain the same as they always are, and they always will be ? It trickles down to the money blueprint we all have in our head. It might be innate, or otherwise influenced by the leaders around us. You might rake in 10 grand per month but yet still be penniless at the end of it. You might actually earn 2 grand per month but yet still pocket 1k at the end of the month.

This is it : You do not need to be rich by earning alot, You CAN BE RICH by spending lesser. This is the misunderstanding of many. I'm trying to lead a low life, not as in that of a peasant, but that of an ordinary young man trying to work his way up in life. I'm not raking in any income now, all that is left maintaing my expenses is that of the earnings I made last year. It aint alot, but can get me through not working for at least till end of next year.

Life is hard. Take it.

Shall sign off after the spamming of entries the minute I'm back blogging.
HAVE A FUCKING GOOD WEEK.

8:16 AM

Things are no longer the same now, many a times I ponder over how the rich become richer and the poor actually stay how they are. I have been to countless seminars and talks that help build confidence, but of all, It boils down to who we really are.

Life is easy for almost anyone.
Go to school,
Get a degree,
Find a job,
Stay for 30 years,
Retire hoping that our CPF can last till our last breadth.

But that is not how I wanna live. I wanna live..
1) a happy life
2) with my loved ones
3) without worring about the price on any menu or tag that i see, that I can buy what ever I want.
4) that I do not have to face a boss to work everyday.
5) that I wont need to drag myself outta bed just to go to work.
6) live the financial freedom life.

Of course, talk is cheap. It aint easy. Look at the people all around us, even including my mom and dad, and even yours too. They are ( well almost all ) are going to work every other day so that they can support our miserable life. I wanna raise my kids another way, I wanna be financially stable so that when my kids are out, I can be there for them when they need me. To nurture, to love and raise them; american style. I wont tie them so tightly like asians do, i beg to differ about the way of life of us yellow skinned versus that of the whites. Till then, we shall see.

TOWARDS MY GOAL.

7:58 AM

I know it's been a while, I apologize.
Have been busy with my Car, Klaire;
Have been loving my girl, Jiayi;
Have started school, SIM;
Have lived the low life in the holidays, period.

Time has proved only to be healing;
Drive is all that I need to believe.
Self doubt is slowly taking place;
I need a sanctuary of confidence:

The look of passion and fire in my pupils dilate
the crimson sorority pain i feel within.
The force the drive the strength i need;
to challenge the will of life of many.

That that endeavours always fails;
With which tags only a lesson inbound.
The multi tribulations that occur everytime;
only make me stronger by the day.

I AM BACK.

7:53 AM

I tried living my life normal and as ordinary;

BUT FUCK IT;
LET'S JUST FUCKING LIVE LIFE AS IF IT WAS THE LAST DAY!

LET'S DRINK,
LET'S PARTY,
AND HAVE FUN !!!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

2:39 AM

1 year. 100k.
Watch me.

2:22 AM

Hello all, I'm at the Singapore Expo helping out Success Resources with their new seminar. Key speaker will be T. Harv Eker, the author of "Secrets of a Millionaire Mind", the best selling book that will unveal the secrets of getting it rich through a diversified portfolio.

I've been here for the past three days and have learnt alot during my stay. I came to realise that one has alot of ways to diversify the portofolio into different risk areas, of low risk, medium risk, and high risk.

Low risk - Bonds, Securities, Land Banking
Medium risk - Land Banking, Natural Gas Investment, ATM investment, Diamonds.
High risk - Commodities, Stocks, Indices.

Knowledge of how to earn a massive passive income was flowing freely in the atmosphere. As much as I could I tried to absorb as much information as possible whilst working. Working hours are long, pay's like peanuts. But I just hoped to learn as much as possible from the wise and rich speakers.

Speakers ranged from stockbrokers to investors of Argyle pink diamonds, Stock portfolios, Natural gas investments, Technical indicators, ATM investments, Land banking, and many more. Spoilt for choice, i lay aback in my seat and absorb as much as i can from theese knowledgeable saints.

I wanna be like them.
I will be.

Labels: Argyle pink diamonds, ATM investment, commodities, millionaire mindset, natural gas, stocks, T Harv Eker, technical indicators

2:13 AM

Since my starting days in SIM I've come to know a very good friend.

One that's so simple.
One that's so naive.
One that's so fragile,
That part I'd wish you don't see.

He comes along as a soft spoken man.
A creature of kind intent.
He holds a heart of gold,
Lessons he has thought me many fold.

He taught me how to be humble, not by his words, not by his dressing, not by how he speaks; But each and everyone of his actions carry along a strand of hope and kindess. One which knows no boundaries.

He taught me that no matter how rich we dress ourselves up, if inside we are nothing but a vacumn of colours, we are nothing.
He taught me that no matter how loaded we are, we are nothing if we dont love our neighbour as oneself.
He taught me that goals should be set ethically, with which friends should not be used as steppin stones.
He taught me that we should be humble, always thatnkful for anything and everything that was given to us, by the society, by our parents, or even our friends.
He taught me alot of things, with which i wont be here today.

Thank you Zhi Hao,
Thank you for believing in me. I will get out of this shit and make it even bigger than what i could do.

WATCH ME.

6:03 AM

Hi all. It's been a while.
Have been bumming around all day, running, gym-ing, swimming.
Training up for the year end marathon in which I dont even have the slighest confidence of finishing it. It's gonna be a challenge for me, a limit i set for myself to break.

I've lost in stocks. Burnt my fingers in the stock market. Will be officially declared bankrupt by end June if i dont settle the issue by end July. Sigh.

Mid life crisis at 22.

My mentor told me i'd experience my mid life crisis in my twenties. A mid life crisis, as deemed from the words itself, implies that halfway through your life, you'd be so stressed up by financial and future burdens that we cant sleep well, cant enjoy ourselves, cant splurge; and a time where while everything seems so good on the outside, it's just nothing but an empty vessel inside.

I burnt my hands in the stock market. Am in debt, but I'd like to say that i learnt alot of lessons from it. I believe it's a medium that can generate money so fast you can make what people make a year in just one week.

Along the way i realised that money is almost everything. To a certain extent, it can buy you friends, company, and maybe even happiness. I know i will be rich someday. It's only a matter of WHEN. Sigh. At least i know in the near future, my debt of 5 digits at the age of 22 is gonna be one huge life lesson to me.

Staying afloat.

5:54 AM

It's intriguing to why anyone can be like this.
Love should be free.
Love sholdnt even be without a fee.
You're disappointing to no degree.

I contemplated what to do;
recollected what we did;
Tried to make myself a fool;
just to be up to your bid.

No one will feel me;
Nothing can replace the feelings.
Everyone can come in;
with which all are just nothings.

This is me saying i love you.
It hurts me to see you
It hurts me to see us like that.
Bros forever,

IK.

The days in Support company..

2:52 PM

With great expectations come great hopes.
With great hopes come greater limits.
With greater limits comes greater stress.
With these stress we will fight.

With this fight we shall fight.
With this fight we shall hold.
With this hold we will bond,
With this bond we will stand.

I want to break free.

10:43 AM

Torn.

So much i have to do.
So little i have to do.
So high the expectations,
So low the qualifications.

Pris commented i will only be happy if
I lower expectations of myself.
Words cant express what i feel inside.
Regret on what i covet is beside.

I cant do it anymore.
I cant do it anymore.
I've changed.
There's no more flame.

All alone the winter flakes engulf my soul;
With which flames implode from a foe.
Black and gray the sillouhettes gather,
My heart drops like a feather.

Close so dear they seem to me,
Far yet near they will always be.
Mom and Dad dont understand me,
But they've been wantein to change everything about me.

A picture speaks a thousand words,
A poem represents a thousand woes.
A teardrop from a broken heart;
A broken wing from afar.

This is ken signing off.
Time to be a normal person.
A humble one;
Normal like the others.

Dont think I'm different.
Dont think I'm extra ordinary.
Dont look up to me.
Dont think I'm a leader.

10:36 AM

PICTURES SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS;
IT'S BEEN A YEAR :)

Somehow I'm looking forward to reservice.
=)

2:37 PM

EX - FUCKING XAMS ARE FUCKING OVER.
HELL YEAH :),
BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT, IS ,

TA - DA !

I'VE GOT MY CAR !
MY BLACK CHEE-BIC ( CIVIC )

ha.
Fucking excited.
Damn cool.
Super nice.
So sleek.
Uber awesome.

LOL. Enough said;
Here are the pics of my 70k girlfriend :

2:26 PM

How Well Do You Know Ken?
1) What do i like to do at pubs?
		drink
		talk to waitresses
		smoke
		make people drunk

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10:05 PM

One more paper left to go, and i've been so unluckily fined 300 fucking dollars for a fucking piece of filter. With that, I wanna state my resolutions and achieve it.

Hard as it will seem,
Mental as it would be,
Even if i dont achieve it,
I wanna be halfway there.

1. Quit smoking by end of May.
2. Train for a marathon ( Standard Chartered marathon in Dec )
3. Register for a property course ( July 2009 )
4. Work as a trader ( June 2009 )

And these are just the outlines.
I can do it.
I will,
I should,
I must.

Kenken.

11:37 PM

NNB I JSUT GOT FUCKING FINED 300 DOLLARS FOR THROWING A CIGARETTE BUTT.
IN FRONT OF MY SCHOOL SOME MORE.

MY RESOLUTION WAS TO QUIT SMOKING 2 DAYS LATER.

AND NOW.

COOL.

RESOLUTION GIFT.

COSTING 300.00 SGD.

FUCK.

11:36 PM

Just finished one paper today. Principles of Accounting. I swear it was one of the worse topics i ever covered in my life.

I prepared all i could.
The paper stood there all still.
Dialing the numbers on the calculator,
I know soon it's gonna be over.

I'm a different person these few days,
I swap wrong words, walk sideways.
I dont talk much,
I just lay back and crunch.

1 more week till freedom.
1 more paper tomorrow.
1 more week till my Civic.
1 more thousand in stocks.
1 more try at anything.
1 more chance of saving it.
1 more attempt to revamp.
1 more;
1 more.

1 last chance.

7:11 AM

studying like mad.
moodless.
speechless.
emotionless.
aimless.
goaless.

2 more weeks.

www.pamper-princess.blogspot.com

11:09 AM

Have been studying so much, only to realise how much i didnt know. I wanna get Honours in my degree, maybe even a first class honours. Studying doesnt look so easy, or maybe it aint for me. But I'll force myself to study. Countdown to major exam in 12 days. WHERE GOT TIME.

Study needs discipline, which maybe i lack. There's only so much one can do to achieve what he wants. I want. I hope, I wish. But nothing is more important than the results. Let the achievements prove everythng.

Hao says I'll get a distinction. Thanks for having the faith in me. I wont say anything for now, but, We'll see.

=)

8:45 PM

Spent the last few weeks studying, the next few weeks wont be different either. Maxing out 14 hour study days have been a norm for me, I'm gonna make sure i'll do well in this exam.

Let the actions speak louder than words.

:)

7:33 AM